1. |
Wonder
04:00
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Wonder
Don’t say what youre thinking
Jump now youre sinking
As time flows
We know
Everything’s a wonder
Act like you mean it
Show them that you beat it
Now pray
Their hate
Dies
Look outside
Feel the light
It’s a wonderful day
Look outside
Feel alive
It’s a beautiful, wonderful day
Feel it all around you
There’s nothing to confound you
Turn it off
Let yourself
Go
Science is believing
The wonder is deceiving
Now train
Your refrain
And fly
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2. |
Alone
04:18
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Alone again,
she sees the girl in the mirror looking back at you
Your god is dead,
she never lived its just another hidden truth
I’m not after any signal or sign, just wanna dance wild
1234 pick your self off the floor
It’s another day
When you’re on the outside just be happy you’re alive
You’re alive
Round and round again
Like a dream in our heads
We drink and then we fall
But we’re not dead
Happy again, nothing like your sons kisses warm and mild
She feels the tenderness,
It’s what she aches for when the bottles dry
She’s not asking for your sympathy or a smile
Just a little time
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3. |
Falling
03:35
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I thought I knew you, I thought it was inferred
Then you surprised me, you loved me more than deserved
It’s a lesson in love, it’s truth can be intense
Beyond all feelings, emotions and sense
And I hear these words spoken in youth with angst
But it’s strength is more powerful now I’m middle aged and past
All the bullshit that life throws at you, the things that cloud over love
That makes you want to start again
And in my dream i thought that I was flying
But in reality I was falling
And in my dream I thought you had left for the night
But in reality, you cradled me so tight
I looked towards others, I thought we might be the same
But when we spoke last night it was clear we’re on the one page
It still amazes me the unconditional-ity you retain
I now see we’re both changed
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4. |
Noose
04:11
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Noose
Don’t be the noose around our necks
Be like Jesus Christ, not the one that dies
Don’t be the cause, be our regret
Be the one that tries, our alibi
We tried
To reconcile the demons deep inside
Its fine
Its in your mind, Its not your time to go
Anyway youre aware
But nothing scares you Nothing gets you down
It’s ok but you’re hate is taking the whole thing down
Youre high
On things you said but nothing made sense
We’ll try
To keep on fighting, keep the sentence down
Anyway We’re ok
You dont have to worry bout a thing
When you think youre away
Thats when we’ll be in your dreams again
Time heals
So they say
Time’s still in the way
Bring it down, bring them down bring them down again
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5. |
Conspire
02:42
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The release has proven addictive
Well beyond all reason
The lines are largely predicted
Betrayal lies and treason
And I
Conspire
To be with her, laugh and read her thoughts and her mind
Alone again my thoughts spiral
Drawn back inevitably
I try to swear on the bible
But it brings me back to her grief
And I
Conspire
To be with her, laugh and read her thoughts and her mind
Why should I love you?
I’m happy, it’s sad
Why should I conspire?
To tear my foundations and watch the walls come crashing down
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6. |
Hurt
05:10
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I didn’t mean to hurt you
I lied to myself
I cried for myself
I didn’t mean to desert you
I wanted more and let
The blindfold lead me on
I wanted to be someone new
I wandered down into the depths of my soul
I hoped that you’d ignore it
But it wasn’t mine to give
It wasn’t mine to take
Didn’t mean to upset you
I was trapped in my room
I thought youd see through
I didn’t mean to make you cry
It kills me inside
To hurt the one I love
And when
This all ends
Will we still fly
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7. |
Refugee
05:24
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He was a good man
Worked hard loved his wife
Held a good job adored his kids
But cried himself to sleep
He couldn’t stay here
The walls were closing in
On a boat across the ocean
Swore he’d build them a better life
Now as he sits alone
Trying to turn back time
He thinks back to days long gone
Before war
Before strife
Am I a good man
Am I selfish in my pride
What is a good man
Is he strong or fragile
Is it all a lie
He was trapped tween truth
Took the other side
Forced to fight or have to flee
Took a good look deep inside
They couldn’t stay there
Waiting to watch them die
On a boat across the ocean
Swore he’d build them a better life
Come back to me…..
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8. |
She Said
04:41
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In and out of New York streets in love
You say you’re listening
What you were isn’t who you want to be
Please try to understand
Here we are in therapy once again
She said she’s trying
But when you leave and I keep falling down
It’s clear it’s over
She said you bring out the worst in me
And he wept in anger not for grief
She said there’s no going back from here
But he knows, When she’s gone he’ll feel so relieved
It’s over
In and down new life seems to change
She said it’s her choice
What you were isn’t who you’ll be in time
Try to speak your voice
Pack your things pretend you care for this
It’s what you wanted
At least it’s sunny, though you prefer the bitter cold
Don’t be daunted
She said you bring out the worst in me
And he wept in anger not for grief
She said there’s no going back from here
But he knows, When she’s gone he’s so relieved
Feels his whole life ahead of him
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9. |
Come Back to Me
04:22
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I came to the end of the road
I saw for the first time I owed
My sanity and logic to fate
Even tho I was running away
I came to the edge of a cliff
And I saw the valley beneath
It was beautiful and I hoped you were there
Come back to me
Don’t leave me here all alone
Come back to me
You bled my heart from a stone
I tried to bring you the news
Tried to make sure you never lose
I looked away for a time and you were gone
Did it have to be so soon?
If you want me I’m waiting in line
Trying to clear the webs from my mind
And I’d give it all for just a little more time
To Fly, fly with you
We’ll fly, fly into the night
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10. |
Mother
03:51
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Mother when I saw you crying the other day
It brought a tear to my eye
But all I did was walk away
Sister when I saw you hurting I felt your pain
But I felt helpless again
And that hurt me too
Brother if you hear me please
Try to concentrate
I know youre only half awake
But it’s important to take aim
Father the next time you raise your hand
I’ll stop the strike
The line drawn in the sand
And I’ll be free
Chorus
Oh mother please dont cry dont hate
You know I always courted fate
And I can’t let these feelings go to waste
Oh father when I fall asleep
I pray the lord my soul to keep
I don’t regret a single thing
I’d go back, do it again
Even now in this cell
I feel so free
From all that hell
I feel the hate slowly subside
Did it have to end this way
I couldn’t see a different fate
Couldn’t see another way out
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11. |
Reach Out RMX
05:14
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12. |
Wake Up
04:00
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Wake Up
I hated you
Even though I knew
You needed me to
It's still hard
I buried you
Did it keep me sane
Or hide my game
It's still fucked
And now
The only thing I fear
Is you
Waking up to hear
Dont wake up
I feel the tears
Though the pain subsides
The thoughts inscribed
Can't be erased
I had to run
Didnt want to stay
It was good that way
Drifting alone
And now
The only thing I fear
Is you
Waking
Dont wake up
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mayhemtom Melbourne, Australia
Mayhemtom is an oncologist who previously played in various cover and original bands before medicine took over.
Rediscovering music and channelling the existential questions that cancer medicine inevitably raises, provided a creative outlet.
His first single from his debut album is called Falling and scheduled to be released on 8th August 2022. Follow @mayhemtomi on IG and Twitter for more.
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